Have you ever heard a song from so long ago with so many memories tied to it that is made you cry? And didn't you wish that you could go back in time when everything was simpular and carefree? Those are the songs that are the soundstracks of our lives...the ones that bring back our childhood, best friends, first love, first broken hearts, and all the memories.

Do you ever get that feeling where you just want to drop to the floor and give up...youve tried so hard at everything and nothing is working out the way you want it to...No matter how hard you try nothing works out! Well thats how I feel right now! I have so many things on my mind and so many things to worry about and they seem like they never end..more and more just keep coming! I just dont know what to do anymore..

Tonight I didnt go out or do anything...I had a volleyball tournament all day and I came home and was getting ready then I just decided that maybe it would be better it I just stayed home for one night and I did...I regreated it at first but now actually im glad that I did..Sometimes you just have to give yourself a break and take things one thing at at time and only hope that things will work out in the end!

I also am really confused about who I can trust anymore..Im not so sure that I can trust anyone..I used to be able to trust all my close friends but I cant even do that anymore. The only person that I can trust with all my heart is Kathryn..and I want to thank you for that! Without you I dont know where I would be! I love you girl!

Well sorry for those who just read this but I had to get some things off my mind before I blew up inside..lol so thanks for taking the time to read and listen...  

Always remember...the littlest things can make the biggest difference! 

xO-Lauren

WoW..is all i have to say about this weekend! It was the best weekend ive had in a long time! I did nothing but have fun and PARTY! I went out every night except for monday night bc gay school was today-which went ok....Man I went shopping and i got so many cute summer clothes and i want it to be summer now! I cant wait until then! -WEnt to the RAdius sunday night..didnt stay long ..it took us like an hour to get there bc we got lost so many times lol ...i almost got killed bc kim didnt know what the fuck she was doing lol just thought i would share that part of my weekend..no need for any other details...Well im off to volleyball practice...

-Wont update for awhile bc my internet wont be fixed until Saturday...So this is all for now!

Leave me some love! XoXo-Lauren

Ahhh finally its Friday! Four day weekend which is awesome! Dont know what im gonna do yet but i know im gonna have some fun....Its Kathryns birthday weekend so..you know what that means..PARty! And im single now so it will be even betteR!! WEll im out! Love ya all! LEave me some love!

Xo-Lauren

HEy Guys! Today is my birthday and its been a good one! Im finally 16 and can drive now! I have waited forever and its finally here! This weekend was awesome! Today when I woke up there were balloons and presents all over the table and my dad was at my house and he took me to get my belly button pierced..and then i came home and my mom was like you have 30 min to get ready and i was like where are we going and she said i cant tell you ..so i got ready and then there were a bunch of people up at the old SRO for me ..people i havent seen in a while so it was fun! Then I came home with crystal and me and her went over to Aarons house! and somoene else came along too...which was a big mistake but we wont go there! It was pretty much fun other then that one person going tho! Crystal thinks she is starting to like his best friend josh so hopefully they get to know eachother better and things will work out..that would be awesome! Well dont have much more to write about...Well tomorrow is Valentines day...hope everyone has a good one! Leave me some love!

XoXo-Love ya all--Lauren

WHats Up BitChes!?!? Havent written in here for a while! Life is Great right now! Couldnt ask for it to be any better..friends are awesome..me and Aaron are good...Volleyball is fun and I can drive in 1 week! Cant wait much longer! Anyways...I have been soo busy with things lately..volleyball takes up so much of my time I feel like I can never go out anymore..I mean I can but when I do I have to be  home at some gay time bc I have a tournament the next day...which is stupid! Tournaments are kinda getting old but volleyball will be over in March and then I will miss it so I should be thankful for what I have now! -That could go along with a lot of things-

This weekend will be fun! Tomorrow if Friday thank god! [[Friday]] I have to work until 9 and then im hanging out with Kathryn..I feel like i havent hung out with her in forever even tho its only been like 2 weekends...but were gonna have some fun tomorrow night! haha

[[Saturday]] I have volleyball practice in the morning then me and kathryn have to reff basketball until 3 and then i think we are getting our hair done..and then doing whatever...

[[Sunday]]Have a volleyball tournament in St.Joe hopefully it will get over at a resonable time so that I can go to some Superbowl parties but cant count on that one...

Well theres my weekend...if you wanna hang out just call me! Im not gonna update for awhile so leave me some lovin!

Heres A cute quote..

Find arms that will hold you at your
[W e A k E S t]
eyes that will look at you at your
[u G L i e S t]
& a heart that will love you at your
[W o R s T]
cuz thats the only LoVe
that really matters......

I love you all! XoXo..Lauren

[[Edit]]

Everyone always writes about how they are feeling or whatever and their emotions but ive found that the best way I can express myself is quotes..I mean I like to write things out too but quotes pretty much sum it up all in one! Heres a really good one that can apply to someone special and this is how I feel right now....

I sometimes feel 
A little [jealous] inside.
Imagining [someone] could please you more than [me]. 
I guess it's my [insecurity] acting up a bit
Because I know i'm not the [most beautiful..]
[Most fun], or even the [most exciting] person
You'll [ever] meet but I do know that [no matter]
How hard and [long] you search you will [never] find a girl Who [loves you] and [cares] about you..the way I do ..